The T word
The word Tumor is a scary one. I heard it too close to home last Friday… Too close as in inside of me. Twice (as in two of them). I have been stressed to find out the results of the tests and that’s totally counter productive since it seems all these maladies started due to stress… Heh. Either way, today I got results from the biopsy today: its benign!. :-)
Tomorrow I get a CAT scan for the other one (its kind of deeper inside of me).
I’m confident its nothing big and it’ll all be ok. If anything its a good time to take a breather and realize too things: a) I’m working too much (or worrying too much), and b) I’m not having healthy habits. Work, projects, money and all that are cool but amount to nothing without the health to enjoy them. I think this will turn out being very positive in my life, I’m eating better and exercising more. Let’s keep it that way.
A message to my fellow grad students and friends in general: It seems this happened due to shitty eating habits, working at odd hours and things of the sort. If I am not mistaken this is kind of a common way of living for grad students, programmers and freelancers in general. A word of advice: stop it. We are still young, but it doesn’t last forever. The mistakes we make today could have big consequences in how we live the rest of our lives… Sigh.
Damn… This feels like a gloomy post. I should stop.
I’m happy though, I got an iPod!. :-P
Note to self
Work is going well so: balance your life.
Working from home makes it easy to just keep working and working all day long. Working with a distributed team, makes it easy to be on call 24/7 and receive calls when I’m supposed to be spending quality time with my girl and friends. Pick up the calls?… Not?…
I loved this weekend for that reason: No cellphone signal, no WiFi or anything electrical for that matter. Going to La Llorona beach in Michoacan was fun and good times. Finding a virgin beach is hard if you don’t know how to get there, its nice we had our experienced guide.
Full moon was awesome, you could see the rocks, montains and everything with that blueish magical light. Next time I hope we go when there is no moon at all, to enjoy the starry night.
Kung Fu related
This video is cool… I rememer I saw an entire special on Shaolin Kung-fu once on Discovery Channel and was completely in awe. This is not about fighting and ass kicking (although I’m sure they can accomplish a lot of that), this is about achieving super human status!… O.o (that or, just really achieving the potential that we all have as humans).
I remember back in the day I did some basic training in Shaolin Kung Fu… Our master was trained by a Monk and, eventually, went to China and became a Monk himself. I could never do a handstand pushup or anything like that (although my trainer did), but I was certainly fit. It was a rewarding feeling whenever guys from the athetics or swimming teams came for a session and they were dead just after the warm up… Its a very different way to train and push your body.
But now I’m fat. :-( Sigh.
On the other hand… Not only humans can do kung fu:
Cheers!
French invasion
Albane has been back for a couple of weeks now… I like it!. Its nice to see how things feel and are when she is around. Fact: I play video games less… Fact: That’s ok (there are valuable trade offs!).
Now it will get funny though, and I guess I’ll have a good chance to practice my French. Next week Constance arrives and will stay over for about a month. She’s been friends with Albane for many many years now, and I am really happy that she’s comming. Albane seems to be having a hard time starting up whatever it is that she wants to do in life… And its hard!. She’s in an awesome position in which she could start anything she wanted, but that takes us to the prision of liberty: having so many open choices in life can be troublesome… Its hard to take a first step towards a path when all the other paths seem equally awesome (or scary). So having Constance around will be good times for her. :-D
Good times.
On other news: This was my first week with a decent workout program since almost a year ago!. O.o I want to loose this extra belly in a couple of months and then stay on track. We’ll see.
Cheers!
Wow…
I get away from wordpress for a little while and the entire interface changes on me!… O.o
I do think its “cooler”, maybe not more useful or anything, but it has the web 2.0 feel with all those nice moving things and ajaxy magic. Anyway, that’s not what I wanted to write about.
Last night I had another freaking out time… Lately they have been coming quite frequently to the point that I can’t sleep and need to get some magic sleeping pills to get the job done. Why are they triggered?… Because of all this projects and ideas I have in my head. Not only in my head really, a big percentage of them have found a way to leak into the real world: I guess that’s where the problem is.
I need days that have 35 hours in which I only need to sleep 3 of them… Heh. I’m happy, all is good… It’s not freaking out in a bad way… Its just that I don’t see how things will happen. I need to learn the magic art of “saying no” now more than ever and FOCUS.
What’s my goal?… What do I want in life?…
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That’s the question I guess. I’ll get back to you on that one.
Almost 3:00 am…
And still can’t sleep…
Work?… Nah… I wish. This is a weird anxious feeling that is not letting go. Things are not going as smoothly as I wish and, to be honest, I am too stressed for my own good. Sigh. Anyway…
Venting…
I’ll see if Borges can take my mind somewhere good.
Funny mixed feelings
I have been working doing design stuff for several years now, most of my clients are always private institutions that use my material for internal purposes. A couple of things have gone public though and people usually like them. For example, I did some flash magic for slide.com, some of the things I did were “seasonal” (valentines, march madness, etc) and some others were experimental. But what is cool is that quite a few pieces of my work are still on their featured resources, they keep producing more and more and only the ones that people really like remain there. Of the things I did for Valentines some were cool enough that their competitor was “highly inspired by my work” and did something quite similar… At the moment I felt outraged, I was like -AARGH! how can they do that?, can’t they just think of stuff by themselves?… bla bla bla- The guy who was the project manager at the time (now is the CTO) told me: -dude, you know you are doing good things when people start copying your work, be happy!-. I was happy.
That was professional, competition doing something “inspired” on my work felt good. The funny thing is that the other day a friend of mine showed me this image and told me to watermark my stuff from now on:
O.o
WTF?… There is this guy totally stealing my identity!!!!!… Making that illustration took me a lot of time, setting up the color scheme, etc… I have the original .psd files, the .ai file, and my current business cards are pretty much that illustration with my contact information. I gave around those cards at the IGDA leadership forum and people were like “this are cool!”… So… What am I supposed to think?. **sigh** I don’t want to start watermarking all my designs either though… Maybe I’ll say everything done by me is “open source” by the CC license in my professional site (I hope to get around making it some time this decade).
For the time being, it feels funny to know someone out there is using an illustration I made of me “spacing-out” to portray himself. :-P
Changed header…
I really like that picture I had on my header but… It just… Doesn’t work. Looking at my self like that all the time felt funny and too self-centered. I mean, its my personal blog so it can’t get much more self centered than that… Still, it felt wrong. Back to the basics and to silliness. This is an image of a keychain I used to keep around all the time. The keychain was a gift from a coworker because it just “fits” me… Why?… Because I am spacingout all the time. Heh.
Cheers…
I promise, you are not blocked…
A lot of people ask if I have blocked them on msn and things like that. I haven’t!… The thing is that I am freaking busy, even now that I am working on stuff I enjoy more, at my own times and all, I just work too much. That has forced me to stay away of messaging, facebook, and even this blog… Which is kind of sad, being that its only through those kinds of media how I can stay in touch with all this great people I have meet and that are in different parts of the world. Folks in Canada and different international students who have gone back to their own countries. Awesome people that I don’t want to loose track of, that I want to stay in touch with.
The problem is that since I work on the computer all the time, whenever I have some free time I just get away from it… I guess I should start opening that old msn again now and then, and enjoy the poking and being poked in facebook. Its more about discipline I assume, I don’t need to deprive my self from those tools, I just need to make sure they don’t take over!. (that happens very easily… heh).
Anyway, enough justifying my self. :-P
Good vibes!
